27/2/2010

How ? This words only ruining in my mind. HOW ? WHAT TO DO ? The only one i trusted is leaving me far apart. How ? What can i do? Lost of friends. Lost of love. Tonight I'm not sleeping nor tears dropping on keyboard listening emo music. How could this happened ? I'm officially 18, but i'm just like young boy which never ever get to enjoy my life. If there is anythings, you can tell me face to face right? why are you doing this to me? I really cant take this. There is no where to let me to go. I don't know where can my face put at. There's a place which i could go perhaps, HELL !
can i? perhaps so,. You could did this to your son, alright..I take it. Anna, I will wait for you no matter how is it. I hope so, everytime there is some things that stop my life enjoying. WHY GOD ?
I tried to be good, don't sin ! but each and everytime i try to walk with you, there's somethings stopping me. How? ......

Lifeless life.

I'm having a lifeless life !how could this fucking thing happened? someone just tell me? I got no life !
SUICIDE WOULD HELP ALOT !.. perhaps i looks like a rich fellow's child, i got no life !! WTF! why? some one please tell me

The moment i learn how to regret !

I never stopped to realize
How lonely I would be
I never thought the day would come
When you'd grow tired of me

Your voice was never sweeter
Than the day you said goodbye
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry

If I knew then what I know now
You'd still be kissing me
Instead there's someone else's lips
Where mine used to be

I say hello and wish you well
Each time I pass you by
But you'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry

You never looked so wonderful
As the day you walked away
I used to say, "I love you"
But that I could not say

I can't forget you XXX..'
No matter how much I try
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too Old to cry

Same Rountine !

Every single day will be the same. sigh* Is there somethings different a bit? I'm under boredness !
Come on somethings good and special happen pls !..hopefully it will. Well. today went for shopping at pavillion. Yet, I used alot again. Is there any boy which addicted to shopping? haha.. Should not right? I used 1400! No doubt I am gonna suffer in the future ! haha..
Anyway, small things happen. I drove again ! but this time I'm driving dad car. It is not simple at all. It is not simple to drive. It's massive ! well, it's benz s320. While on the way, dad was like keeps on nagging (slow bit slow bit, front got car front got car.)..I was like YAYAYA..!! I know lar ! hahaha..
i just drove about 80km/h(on the highway) due to the packs of cars in highway. lol...It's so nice to drive a S320 at this age. Well, We went to subang and ate there. Went we reached, everyone was like looking at me. WHAT THE HACK? with my balls shrunk over and I asked my self never seen a teenagers drove benz before is it ? haha...bla bla bla.. Ironically, while back that time. I drove speedy a bit. hmm, it was bout(120++km/h)...anyway, i already used to it with my car. but not with dad !. hmmm, It is like so fun to drive so far away from home ! hahaha

Is not I don't want to REPLY !... We are not possible !You Have boy's friend and you guys are good !..I don't want to be the one who breaks it up!
Once I seen your blog. Heart's had melted ! I cant even speaks! perhaps it's just me building castle in the sky( DAY DREAMING). Sorry for cheating you too. Perhaps you're choosing the right one to stay with. He are good ! Stay right with him k? We still friend right ?


One Simple Word
One simple word was all I had to say
Now it’s a nightmare day after day
In the cold basement was where it happened
It was my first
I wish it never happened
One simple word was all I had to say
He’s leaning in close to your chest,
listening the heart beat of youuuuurrrrrsssss !!( I wish I could )
Looking into HIS soul
Everything is quiet
All I had to say was no
My memories are nightmares
They come day after day
I cry in my bed
It was one simple word I wish I would have said
Sorry We does not SUIT ! bee happy !

fragility, breakable and delicate
weak, lifeless and static
in one spells disaster
of many it brings 'laughter'

objects moving simultaneously revolving everyone
of objects that are cumbersome in one's eye
other seems so small and insignificant
to pay any attention appear awkward

how of one is to be remembered?
of them who gives in a little
how of many heed favourable?
of them who flaunt themselves

to one way it brings joy
to another it brings otherwise
the road fill with oil
the crossing in it they lie

many a times
one constant tells
but many of times
they ring false bells

no one perceive soul of me
assumptions were made in wrongful thought
oh what dreadful events bestowed on me
i'm in need to You to clear my thoughts

Missing You

Missing You
 
No words I write can ever say,
How much I miss you every day.
As time goes by the loneliness grows,
How I miss you... nobody knows.
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name.
But all I have are memories,
And a photo in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow,
No one sees me weep.
But the love I have for you,
Is in my heart and mine to keep.
I never stopped loving you,
I don't think I ever will.
Deep inside my heart,
You are with me still.
Heartaches in this world are many,
But mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches as I whisper low,
"I need you... and miss you so."
The things we feel so deeply,
Are often the hardest things to say.
But I just can't keep quiet anymore,
So I'll tell you anyway.
There is a place in my heart,
That no one else can fill.
I love you... and I always will.