The moment i learn how to regret !

I never stopped to realize
How lonely I would be
I never thought the day would come
When you'd grow tired of me

Your voice was never sweeter
Than the day you said goodbye
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry

If I knew then what I know now
You'd still be kissing me
Instead there's someone else's lips
Where mine used to be

I say hello and wish you well
Each time I pass you by
But you'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too big to cry

You never looked so wonderful
As the day you walked away
I used to say, "I love you"
But that I could not say

I can't forget you XXX..'
No matter how much I try
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because I'm too Old to cry

Same Rountine !

Every single day will be the same. sigh* Is there somethings different a bit? I'm under boredness !
Come on somethings good and special happen pls !..hopefully it will. Well. today went for shopping at pavillion. Yet, I used alot again. Is there any boy which addicted to shopping? haha.. Should not right? I used 1400! No doubt I am gonna suffer in the future ! haha..
Anyway, small things happen. I drove again ! but this time I'm driving dad car. It is not simple at all. It is not simple to drive. It's massive ! well, it's benz s320. While on the way, dad was like keeps on nagging (slow bit slow bit, front got car front got car.)..I was like YAYAYA..!! I know lar ! hahaha..
i just drove about 80km/h(on the highway) due to the packs of cars in highway. lol...It's so nice to drive a S320 at this age. Well, We went to subang and ate there. Went we reached, everyone was like looking at me. WHAT THE HACK? with my balls shrunk over and I asked my self never seen a teenagers drove benz before is it ? haha...bla bla bla.. Ironically, while back that time. I drove speedy a bit. hmm, it was bout(120++km/h)...anyway, i already used to it with my car. but not with dad !. hmmm, It is like so fun to drive so far away from home ! hahaha

Is not I don't want to REPLY !... We are not possible !You Have boy's friend and you guys are good !..I don't want to be the one who breaks it up!
Once I seen your blog. Heart's had melted ! I cant even speaks! perhaps it's just me building castle in the sky( DAY DREAMING). Sorry for cheating you too. Perhaps you're choosing the right one to stay with. He are good ! Stay right with him k? We still friend right ?


One Simple Word
One simple word was all I had to say
Now it’s a nightmare day after day
In the cold basement was where it happened
It was my first
I wish it never happened
One simple word was all I had to say
He’s leaning in close to your chest,
listening the heart beat of youuuuurrrrrsssss !!( I wish I could )
Looking into HIS soul
Everything is quiet
All I had to say was no
My memories are nightmares
They come day after day
I cry in my bed
It was one simple word I wish I would have said
Sorry We does not SUIT ! bee happy !

fragility, breakable and delicate
weak, lifeless and static
in one spells disaster
of many it brings 'laughter'

objects moving simultaneously revolving everyone
of objects that are cumbersome in one's eye
other seems so small and insignificant
to pay any attention appear awkward

how of one is to be remembered?
of them who gives in a little
how of many heed favourable?
of them who flaunt themselves

to one way it brings joy
to another it brings otherwise
the road fill with oil
the crossing in it they lie

many a times
one constant tells
but many of times
they ring false bells

no one perceive soul of me
assumptions were made in wrongful thought
oh what dreadful events bestowed on me
i'm in need to You to clear my thoughts

Missing You

Missing You
 
No words I write can ever say,
How much I miss you every day.
As time goes by the loneliness grows,
How I miss you... nobody knows.
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name.
But all I have are memories,
And a photo in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow,
No one sees me weep.
But the love I have for you,
Is in my heart and mine to keep.
I never stopped loving you,
I don't think I ever will.
Deep inside my heart,
You are with me still.
Heartaches in this world are many,
But mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches as I whisper low,
"I need you... and miss you so."
The things we feel so deeply,
Are often the hardest things to say.
But I just can't keep quiet anymore,
So I'll tell you anyway.
There is a place in my heart,
That no one else can fill.
I love you... and I always will.

OMFG..It's Twilight !...recently reading twilight. It's the most fascinating book ever !!! It's SO FXXX ing amazing !!! hahaha..

blood. the last vampire

Yakota Air Force Base, an American military compound in Japan, has been invaded by a league of shape-shifting vampires known as Chiropterans. It's up to Saya, a grim woman of mysterious origin, and her magic sword to rid the base, and the planet, of these unwelcome and menacing monsters.

Well, yesterday joined and1. I, Jun Shen, Long Quan a.k.a elephant. Hmm, our team name was La fing. Well, definitely we lost. The opponent was too good enough to defeat our team even thought we have elephant. Long quan checked they was PJ state player. hmm, is proud to have match with them. Anyway, after the match we went for movie. But, they two managed to buy transformer. So, i went with sia, lokesh, sean, see, and ah yu for BLOOD THE LAST VAMPIRE. After that, we went back. I was so exhausted. I slept till 10 woke up..

Ah... WTF, Moral project ! Add math Project ! all fucking project lar ! Boredddd ah !.. Anyway, I joined TOP GEAR GO-KARTING COMPETITION...hahaha.. i'm waiting for that day.. Muhahaahaa..., and guess what? MU asia tour !!! hahaha.. malaysia vs M.U ? hahaha..I'm gonna sick of that match. hahahaha... !

You And Me.

You and I were meant to be,
I’ll keep your heart for you to see…
That my love for you can bring you back belief,
Ignite once again that passion, that made you soar and brought to you relief!
Your words alone, have calmed my silent tears,
An angel of light, who has rid me from these past dark fears.

Every word you say, keeps on taking my breathe away,
It is you the sweet melody that plays in my mind each and everyday!
I hope for this to last and I long for it to be real,
For pure eternal love, is all my heart now feels!
It is you, who has changed my life and I’m glad I did the same,
For my world’s been technicolor, since the very day you came!

While we was chatting. you suddenly said about ours pass. I was shocked. I feel happy and curious, you suddenly said about it, you use to ignore it while i said this things. After that i beg you for a 5 min call, you finally agree. I was so happy ! and we talks blah blah blah until half an hours. Between the call, you have lots of messages. i felt jealous, and wandering who was that? You let me guess, is still your ex. I asked u, did you still love him? You said it proudly OF COURSE. at that moment, my hearts was kinda hurts. Then i asked what makes you so loves him? i don't really know. But i told you I'm gonna wait too. Went i said "I love You" this words already disappear in our world. We two don't say this anymore. I hardly pray we could say this again. I know i hurts you deeply before. But it was over so long and i had changed ! I waited you for 1 and half year, without loving any girl. i really need you, you know? but tonight I just happy la. because, is been a long time we doesn't talks phone anymore. Thanks for tonight Ying Ying. I still going to wait !

Mother's Day.

MOTHER hold their children’s hands for a short while, but their hearts forever.
is not a person to lean on, but a person to make leaning unnecessary.
The joys of motherhood are never fully experienced until the children are in bed.
So, HONOUR your mother and Loves her !

Today were mother's day. So, while my family was in church workshiping and i leave church and went to a shop and looks for flowers. hmmm, it was all booked ! i was like Omgeee !! but luckly, i found one shop BIRD's OF PARADIESE i guess. It held at bbk. The flowers there are pretty nice as the seller so. hahahaha.. I brought a Mother's day flower. It cost me about 180+. hmm, is worthy la. For mummy what. haha, So, while mummy and families are chit-chating with some of the friends at church. I went in and give it to her. hahaha, Suddenly, aunty Dorrina asked me to hug her! So, i just hugs her ! hahaha... It was so great to see mummy cried for touching! hahaha.. hmmm, anyway, this is not the greatest mother's day for her. She will get the most happiest
mother's day as the following years and years. I LOVE YOU MUMMY !!!...

After that we went to NAZA. I was looking for Toyota MARK X. hmmm, we found it ! but it not really comfortable, not really suit me. So, daddy choose BMW X6. and it cost 600k plus. hmm, it's worthy enough. and damn it dammy comfortable ! hahaha. hmmm, perhaps after SPM i would get it !...

YOur Lies

Funny when things never change
Even when you say they will
But while your off s(rewing her
My life is standing still

You tell me that you love me
When I go to leave
You tell me I'm your only one
And I let myself believe

I know that you are using me
But you'll never let me go
I know that you don't love me
I know I'm just for show

I don't know If I can stand
To see you love another girl
You know that you broke my heart
You know that your my world

But while your standing by my side
I'll believe your lies forever
Cause everything seems so perfect
When we are together

Kiss ME iN Emo.

a busy day.

Today morning woke up and went for futsal at KEC. Berkerly's FC vs ACS. I represented Berkerly. hmm, not bad lar today match, quite fun. Met some of my TYPICAL CRAPS acmarian friends. hahaha, we was craping around with non-stop, expecially PIRAI haha...


At afternoon, i went AEON with ah bee, jia you,.. after that attended his party. hahaha
it was bored at the first but finally lots of friends arrived lates. hmm.. nothing much lar.



hmmm, felt that some ppl are so CHILDISH. seriously. damn it, sports day argues. School concerts things again.
Again and again. Come on lar. Grow up lar guys. Mature bits lar. haiyo, just a little things gonna argue agains. Anyway, I dont get a Damm also.. hahaha

Guess what? Tomorrow is The GREAT Mother's Day. Gonna give you suprises Mummy. I LOVE YOU MUMMY ! hahaha...

Just three little words
don't seem like enough
for someone whose smile
still brightens my day,
whose touch can make me forget
the rest of the world.

They don't seem like enough
for someone who's always been there
to celebrate with me
when everything goes my way
and to hold my hand
when my whole world
seems to fall apart.

But even though "I Love You"
can't express the depth
of my feelings for you.
I hope you know what's in my heart.
Because loving you
means more to me
than anything in the world
and it always will.

Nothings much about today. hmmm..this fews day i been watching.


This movie seriously damn nice !!!! check it out guys !

I've spend a night thinking what craps i had done before,
thinking about the past.
Realised i'm a slut, no ones loves me.
I'm just norther, trying to find myself.
in the crowd in the place of confusion

A memories that not wanted, Flying with my breath.
This tears of mine fall, no ones wipes for me.
Some on please shine down on me.
Love me for no reason. Time does't turn back.
I could not be the best, either be the worst.
No one could cure my painess.

I'm just a EMO slut.

Labour Day. !!!

It is Labour Day which is people don't works today. hahaha, by the way, there is no link withs me. hmm,today i was copying Moral nilai definisi, WTH...!! 500 definisi got to copy! what to do. lazy to memorize. hmm, after that, I with family went to Mid Valley, It was so crowd until sweat inside. I brought some new cloths from Ehcopark and Radioactive. hmmm, nothings much happened today. Oh ya right, there was a new pack of HPI E10 (drift-spec)of radio control car. It is pretty nice! Sorry i have no pictures. i could't find.haha. hmmm, nothings much about today...

Here some of my picture while i'm boreddddd and trying to poseeeeee !!! hahahaa

Falling away....

I am bored with love
and it's passionless limbs
that drape over my bed
in a lethargic state of impotence
while wearing the same red heart
my soul picked up hitchhiking
off highway serendipity

Now here we are
alone in togetherness
trying to build dreams
with two by fours and glue,
but even a home
won't tie us together
when our hearts live alone

29/4/2009

As usual, today went to school with bored feels. hmmmm, I got piss off in Bio class. wth? i was just pass by Ming Hock and we was talking crap at there. Brainess teacher esaw and said i was planing where to smoke later. WTH? i does't K? and she also said her husband is a lawyer and she know alots of polices. WHO CARES. Come on lar reality lar my friend. I just kept my mouth shut and let her embarrass me. OMGeeee.. Hmmm, whatever lar. what to do. I was a smoker. No matter what i do, there is still a bad image in me. Heee..

Today, i brought two new basketball shoes. Guess what guys, it was LEBRON VI(6) Limited edision and And1 diamond mid. hahaha it cost me RM 700 for the two shoes. hahaha Zeee..
Here is some of the pic.









OMGeee. The shoes is too nice ! wakakaka

Tuesday, 28/4/2009

Yesterday while dinner, i told mummy i seriously could't tolerate in this school anymore. I hate this school so much. I dont want to study here. I'm really really really bored. Imagine that the entire of school just 105students and my class just 5 of them, 3 are girls 2 are boys(included me). OMGGGGG !! and the another boy is kinda retarded. I have no friends at all. come on lar. How to survive? There is no GERKO for this school. One PJK period. OMG.. and teachers are just concentrates on girls. Come on, i paid too ok? i paid and study here too ok? I just wish to changes anothers school you know? Since i shifted here i dont felt any happiness anymore la. hmmm. Nothings much today. I just know that this school everyweek definately there is students been suspended. hmmm. come on lar, reality bit lar. everyday suspend student, you think this school is what huh? best school in Malaysia? everyday there is students been suspend. I'm bored to look at this lar. hmmm, what to do. there still fews month for me anymore. Whatever lar. just continue lar. hmmm... SPM soon!!!!!..



this my recently photo.

Emo. better sweet.

The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone.
I cry for the time that you were almost mine, I cry for the memories I've left behind, I cry for the pain, the lost, the old the new, I cry for the times I thought I had you
Not all scars show, not all wounds heal Sometimes you can't always see The pain someone feels
Whats the sense of wishing for something when I always just wish it away?
Every night i talk to the stars pretending its you.. it acts just like you tho.. far away and never replies to my questions
Why do people tell you to believe in what you want to but then tell you not to believe in the one true thing you do believe in?
Times a precious thing to waste, but friends are more precious
* Kiss me im emo!
The sad truth is that most evil is done by people who never make up their minds to be good or evil.
The saddest aspect of life right now is that science gathers knowledge faster than society gathers wisdom.
Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far beyond yours. Were it otherwise, he would never have been able to find these words.

This kind of life. useless. pointless, even though i looks happys, fortunates, but honestly, truly hearts of me No One Understands me...argh!
So, help me god, i just hope been blessed, and everythings is path in your hand.
HOW COULD THIS HAPPENED TO ME..